kerkevik_2014 | Entries tagged with depression

Reading some of my early posts from my first lj, which I can no longer properly access, brought back a lot of stuff that nearly had me in tears on the bus journey back from Perth today. Found the poem I would have liked to post but, frankly it would have taken too long to type out tonight, and I managed to find one that follows, for me, a similar theme.

Love Letter by Carole E. Gregory

Dear Samson,

I put your hair

in a jar

by the pear tree

near the well.

I been thinkin'

over what I done

and I still don't think

God gave you

all that strength

for you to kill

my people.

Love – Delilah

Goddess preserve

Kerk

Current Mood: depressed
Current Location: nowhere
Current Music: Listening to Tiny Fences podcast for The Weight of the World
Crossposts: http://kerkevik-2014.livejournal.com/150949.html

Was just checking for things to throw out, and guess what I found with no food until Monday?

A pasta meal that is quite clearly past it's usable date, but which could have helped stretch out what I did have if I hadn't forgotten it existed. There were also some bagels and other sustainables.

Now I feel like I deserve to feel as hungry as I do.

Not in a third world way mind you; I know I'll be able to eat on Monday.

Feeling very unable to deal with things properly just now; not so much sorry for myself, rather than despairing of ever learning how to live in an even relatively normal fashion. You know; regular meals; sleeping properly; that kind of thing.

Really feel like I don't know what I'm doing, with anything.

kerk

Current Mood: drained
Current Location: Blairgowrie, Sector 001
Current Music: Round the Horne S1; Ep16
Crossposts: http://kerkevik-2014.livejournal.com/40680.html

Lately it seems like, no matter what mood I'm in, I always feel ready to start crying.

I feel so tired.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Location: Blairgowrie, Sector 001
Current Music: It's Going To Take Some Time by The Carpenters
Crossposts: http://kerkevik-2014.livejournal.com/27234.html

Going through another depression. I can feel it closing in on me. The good days are getting fewer, but higher; the bad ones darker and longer.

I was supposed to be very busy today, but I ended up sleeping through it. Not seeing a way through.

Current Mood: tired
Current Location: Blairgowrie, Sector 001
Current Music: Radio 2 Folk Show

Looking forward to this Sunday and seeing the National Theatre production of War Horse; though only live at the Glasgow Film Theatre.

http://www.warhorseonstage.com/

Going with a couple of friends, and seeing a friend who's moving to Canada at the end of the month.

Enjoyed the movie tremendously, and liked the book a lot, but this is the one I must admit I've been waiting to see.

One day I'll be in the theatre for it, but this will suffice for now.

Suddenly feeling perked up after spending most of the day feeling frustrated and slightly depressed.

There's always a brighter day around the corner.

Goddess watch over us all,
'tis ok to be Takei,
Ray.

Current Mood: lonely
Current Location: Dundee Central Library
Current Music: World War One at Home on BBC Radio Ulster

Ramblings of an Old Kweer

"O General; My General."

Entries tagged with depression

National Poetry Month 2017 #4. Love Letter by Carole E. Gregory

I really don't know what I'm doing.

Not okay...

Here we go again :-(

War Horse on Sunday!

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