Ramblings of an Old Kweer

 
   This was the second of two fics that I wrote the other night; but has grown from an attempted drabble, into a triple. It wanted to be short, but not as short as I originally thought it to be.

 

   TITLE: Forged Identities

   AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014 / kerkevik_2014 

   FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

   CHARACTERS: Faith Lehane; Xander Harris;

   LENGTH: 300,

   SUMMARY: How do the characters we know and love continue to deal with the losses; gains and changes in their lives.

   A/N: This is set in the femalehusband!verse; where Willow is dead, Kennedy never knew her and Faith and Tara are, at this point in the timeline, now married and parents. They did put the cart before the horse, but I've always believed the horse should have the freedom to decide to what, or whom, it should be tethered. I've also borrowed a character from the comics; only mentioned here, but I liked her, and here she is very much alive. There is also a character mentioned here that jetwolf created for her Series8 continuation www.btvschosen.com/, which sadly seems to have died as a result of the much-to-be-cursEd Joss Whedon fanfiction which are the current comics (I love Satsu & Renee though).

   The definition of Forged in the title comes from these meanings en.oxforddictionaries.com/thesaurus/forge, as in the the fire that forges steel; mythical rings etc...

 

     X-man was waiting outside Buffy's office when she dropped off her report.

 

   “Why do you even patrol?”
   He watched her from the door; thought about telling him where to go, but he didn't wait for her.

 

   “You have a family now,” and she followed his gaze to the new framed photo above her desk; her, Tara and the baby the day she'd given birth. Faith felt an unfamiliar sensation at that.

   Heart tightening, she pushed past him and strode down the corridor to the coffee machine in the Commissary.

   He followed.

   Of course he did; man had he cornered, morally, having helped her deliver her child... and because of what she'd nearly done to him. He could be like a dog with a bone about things like that.

   Chrissie had also had a crush on him when she'd first arrived; never become a lover, like Renee; mostly because the X-Man always remembered when she was twelve.

   How could she explain to him that she needed to kill the demons herself; before Kennedy got here. Not that anyone would blame her, but Kenn had responsibilities that didn't allow for personal revenge.

   She would always be a Slayer even so, and Chrissie had been one of her first trainees; only her being thirteen had mitigated against her following Kenn to London all those years ago. She'd done Kennedy proud though; buying her own trainees the time they needed to escape.

   He watched her preparing two cups of coffee; grunted and went off to make his trademark; near-as-fuck Fenway Dogs he'd created for her thirtieth birthday.

   Watching the coffee dripping she wondered how to explain, so he'd understand.

   Then something Buffy had told her many years ago came to mind; back before the Great Sundering, which had nearly killed them both.

 

   “It's who I am,” she told him when he returned.
   They dined in silence.

 

      Goddess preserve us in these dark times,

 

      

 

      Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth

 

 

 

 
 
   Had a beautiful day travelling up the east coast of Scotland to Aberdeen; dark already, but I've had a wonderful time listening to a radio programme about the male voice choir formed around Aberfan two years after the disaster forty-eight years ago. Set my spirit tingling listening to them, 

 Here's a drabble. 

   TITLE: Lost in Transition

   AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014 / kerkevik_2014 

   FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

   CHARACTERS: Buffy Summers; Rona;

   LENGTH: 100,

   SUMMARY: With all the Slayers in the world; new ones coming all the time, without having to be one who replaces another who's died... what futures will open up for Slayers who don't want to be on the frontline anymore, now that this is an actual option?

   A/N: Rona seems to be getting into my muse's brain, which is strange in one way because it wasn't until the final episode, really, that she really impinged on my consciousness. There's definitely more to come from her.

 

     “You play so beautifully; why not use it?”

 

   “It... Refuge.”

 

   Buffy could see where Rona was coming from.

   “You and Vi...”

 

   “We're not a couple.”

 

   “... are amongst my most  trusted field commanders,” she continued, ignoring the unneccessary interruption. “Ever wondered why?” Buffy added, standing up.

   She moved to sit beside Rona, on her; silent, side of the desk.

   “That bond you have; you've built lives of your own.”

 

   Rona smiled, “She's a geek.”

 

   “She also loves teaching; you both do.”

 

   Rona glanced up; honestly perplexed.

   “So teach, “ Buffy told her, who never learned. “Go teach the newbies how to life.”

 

 

      Goddess preserve in these evil times, 

      

 

     Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth

 

 

 
  Last one for tonight, and for now. More to come, elisi's birthday presents tend to have lives of their own :-)

 

  TITLE: Safety Being the Key

  AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014

  FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

  CHARACTERS: Dawn; Lisa;

  LENGTH: 100,

 SUMMARY: Not everything was dark for Dawn before Buffy's return; not in this 'verse.

  A/N: Not a fan of fics about Dawn when Buffy was gone as a rule, but my muse wouldn't let me set this at any other time.

 

     Leaning back into Lisa's arms; top of her head being kissed, Dawn somehow stayed concentrated on studying.

   She felt safe; too safe sometimes.

   Tara; Willow; Xander; Spike; they all watched her.

   Even Anya watched her.

   She had Lisa to hold her now.

   And Lisa's arms made her feel as safe as... her Mom and Buffy used to.

   No longer a secret love, Dawn still started humming Doris Day, earning another kiss.

   She hoped they could see her now; happy, even though they weren't here.

   Her belly rumbled; reminding her of their trysts at Clem's crypt.

   “Fancy pizza and a movie?”

 

     Goddess watch over us all, 

     

     Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth

 

 

 

 

   
  First of the three written pencil, but not transferred to Open Office, that I will hopefully be posting today. Then I have tostart writing more, as well as getting some of the other stories I have in my head down; non-Lisa/Dawn Buffyverse, as well as non-Buffyverse included. 
 Back to work :-)

 

  TITLE: Love's Keys Unlocked

  AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014

  FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

  CHARACTERS: Lisa; Dawn;

  LENGTH: 100,

  SUMMARY: Lisa and Dawn are now; when this is set, not only out; they are offically a couple now. If I have my high school years correct they are seniors here; also, as this is the femalehusband!verse, we are in the months immediately preceding the destruction of Sunnydale, more than a year after it happened in canon. We are also pre-Massachusetts marriage equality.

  A/N: Definitely not a linear writer, as some of these sequences-within-sequences are being revealed to me almost in reverse order.

 

     “They never married?”

   Lisa shook her head, distractedly stroking her Dawn's breast; the one she could reach, as they relaxed after their first time.

   Dawn struggled with the concept; sighing.

   Despite her parents; Xander's family, or Willow's Mom, it somehow never occurred to her that it wasn't automatic to marry someone you wanted to be with, like forever.

   Not that, being two girls, they could anyway.

   Legally anyway.

   She gasped as Lisa nuzzled her neck, successfully distracting her.

   Silently she was thanking Tara for refusing to give advice, as she responded to the magically unknown world she and Lisa were exploring together.

 

     Goddess watch over us all; especially in the next weeks,

     

     Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth

 

 

 
  So dear elisi,  I believe I have a working title for all these drabbles. At this moment in time; since it became blindingly obvious that so many of these titles involved shadows, it shall be known as the Shadows series. Of course this may develop, but it will certainly do for now. I shall also need some thought on why, and whether Tara should, be passing Dawn's secret on. My muse is telling me that it comes from something in Tara's past, or psyche; further thought is needed though. 
 

   TITLE: Shadows and Reflections

   AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014

   FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

  CHARACTERS: Lisa's Dad; Tara;

   SUMMARY: Right, or wrong; parent or no, sometimes difficult choices have to be made.

   A/N: Tara's been in some dark places; had to make some hard choices to survive. Easier for her to make them where the lives of others are involved.

 

     Queueing, he contemplated what Tara Maclay had told him; eyes closed he tried not to worry, also wondering about getting a pastry.

   “Can't protect them forever.” He jumped.

   “S-sorry, what did, “

   “I have to pee; couldn't get me a green tea?”

   Shaking, he nodded. Watching her make her way to the toilets he wondered if she was British, like his wife had been; when he met her.

   Which led his thoughts back to his daughter, and the news that the girl she was in love with; no way he was about to fool himself there, was only a few months; possibly weeks old.

 

     Goddess watch over us all, 


     

    Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth

 

 

 

 
   Dear elisi I've been forgetting to tag you; consider me chastened. In my defence I should have been sleeping,  but I',m worried about a friend whose being forced to choose between her cats and losing her council flat. She's choosing her cats of course, but she really needs the
stress right now. Trying to help, but very little I can do practically.

   Anyway, here's number four of those seven I mentioned before (three others pencilled in to my notebook).

   More to come.  

 

   TITLE: Slayer's Soul; Next Level Unlocked 

   AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014

   FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

   CHARACTERS: Tara; Faith;

   LENGTH: 100,

   SUMMARY: Who told Faith about Dawn? Certainly not the Watcher's Council, and who wanted to visit Faith out of the Scoobies. Maybe someone who's concerns are more about a person than the past.

   A/N: This was the one that made this series part of the femalehusband!verse; also the fourth drabble to be written. I think I may be trying too hard to make all these drabbles; there are a couple of stories that are giving me trouble, but I have ideas (for fics not of this series as well) about those.

 

     “Fuck.”

   Tara wished she gambled for a moment.

   Faith sat down again, “How?”

   Then... “Why?”

   Followed after seeing Tara's raised eyebrow, “Well yeah, I guess... but I'm still the Slayer?”

   Tara caught the question; knew the self-doubt.

   “We don't know... Buffy isn't The Slayer, but... “

   “She is.”

   “Yeah, “ Tara answered, even though Faith just seemed to be thinking aloud; probably wondering about things that hadn't happened.

   She'd been there.

   Keeping her eyes on Faith, Tara's thoughts drifted; her worries over Willow; Dawn, and there was Lisa now too.

   Faith's next question said more about her than she intended.

   “Is she safe?”

 

     Goddess watch over us all, 


     

 

     Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth

 

 

 

    
  Nearly allowed myself to get distracted again. 

  Before I get too much further, by which beyond the seventeen of these I have done so far; this is only the ninth to get posted, I must get these listed somewhere in their chronological order. Got Floodland playing again; my head-canon says this is Lisa's fave album (she has it on vinyl - and CD & MP3 & every other platform available; depending on whenever a story is set). 

 There's potential in how boyband loving Dawn & 80's goth (and probably in 2016 Afropunk loving Lisa) mesh their musical tastes; though I imagine a joint love of 80s music will help, 

 Ack! Plot bunnies go'WAY! 

Anyway more Lisa and her Dad (plot bunnies where are their names?) 

 

   TITLE: Love's Shadow

   AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014

   FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

   CHARACTERS: Lisa; her Dad & Dawn (in abstentia;

   LENGTH: 100,

   SUMMARY: Lisa in the know now... the aftermath begins.

   A/N: This girl who was in all of one scene; two if you're nitpick-y, is really in my head, so there's more of these to come. I've skipped here; there is another scene to be written – at least.

 

     “I'm not real!”

   The visceral pain Lisa felt; deep inside, hearing those words in her head made the hurt she felt when Dawn barely acknowledged her at her Mom's funeral.

   Feel just as sharp really, but a pinprick in comparison.

   Breathless at her absence as she felt, Lisa gathered herself before her Dad came into the kitchen; fought to keep herself together as he seemed to take forever to get his coffee and doughnuts.

   As he prepared his bacon; eggs and toast, she quietly left for school.

 

   She didn't see him sit down, breakfast absent; as he pondered her sadness.

 

     Goddess watch over us all,

     
 

     Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth

 

 

 
  Almost got distracted into forgetting to post this today, but here 'tis. Another moment between Lisa and her Dad; really have to give him a name; them a surname (Mom included), but that can wait. It is, as are they are all, dedicated to elisi as a birthday present. 

 

  TITLE: The Key to a Parent's Heart

  AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014

  FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

  CHARACTERS: Lisa, and her Dad,

  LENGTH: 100,

  SUMMARY: Geeks are good; especially when they're a girl and her Dad.

  A/N: So Lisa's been told who Dawn is now, this is set some time after.

 

 

     He just sat there; expressionless.

   “I like her; I mean really like her. Like the way you talk about Mom like.”

   He settled into his best Han Solo pose and told her, “I know.” She glared, and he leant forward and stroked her hair, “I've known for weeks. You get the same look in your eyes as she did; how could I not?”

   “What about..?” She lost her capacity for speech; her father hadn't.

   “What does it matter how old she is? Your feelings are obviously real; what else matters?”

   He held her hand and channelled Yoda, “Patience, my young Padawan; understanding will come in time.”

   She kissed his cheek, “I love you, Daddy.” All he could hear was her mother's voice.

 

 

     Goddess watch over us all,

 

     

 

     Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth

 

 

 
   This was written yesterday evening, so can be seen as evidence that the flow of these drabbles is continuing.This, as with the others is intended as a birthday pressie for elisi. 


  TITLE: A Key's Shadows

  AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014 

  FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

  CHARACTERS: Lisa; Dawn Summers;

  LENGTH: 100,

  SUMMARY: Every relationship brings its secrets; especially on the Hellmouth.

  A/N: This is set at some point following Dawn's conversation with Tara; no worries over spoilers here, safe to say, in the tradition of The Hitchhikers Guide to the Universe, that Lisa is, as yet, unaware of Dawn's true origins. 

 

     Lisa raced up to the canteen table; late, but full of enthusiasm at the thought of seeing Dawnie. They'd no classes together today, and this might be her only chance at seeing her.

   She felt her optimism begin to evaporate as she took in Dawn's expression.

   She'd been crying.

   Breaking their rule she placed a hand on her new girlfriend's; they were still very new; they'd only just come out to themselves about it.

   She wasn't certain she should worry that Dawnie didn't pull away.

   When she did, it was reluctant; as if she was afraid.

   Now, so was Lisa.

 

 

     Goddess watch over us all,

 

     

 

     Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth

 

 

 
  Third one this morning to be posted; all birthday pressies for elisi; this one was written after I woke up this morning, so definitely more to come, and about a dozen; including the ones already posted written. 

 

  TITLE: The Key for a Father's Love

  AUTHOR: kerkevik_2014 

  FANDOM: Buffy the Vampire Slayer

  CHARACTERS: Lisa's father; Dawn Summers;

  SUMMARY: Dawn thinks she's been so careful...

  A/N: After the Valentine's fic, but early in their dating relationship; Dawn is still learning about her girlfriend's father...

 

     “Not so formal Dawn; not as if this is a date after all, “ grinning wickedly as his offhand remark made her blush.

   Had to keep the pain in check though; so much did it remind him of his wife.

   Even after all this time he could hear Lisa's mother admonishing his evil humor, fresh pangs his just reward.

   He could see so much of them in this girl and his daughter it was hard to remember they were still children. He had to though; hard not to think he could see their future.

   He could only hope Lisa's was happier.

 

 

 

     Goddess watch over us all,

 

     

 

     Kerk(evik) TehKek Hiraeth